LoyalLAM's Blog

A very exhausting weekend.

I had gotten a phone call from my mom about my eldest cousin who is dying from cancer. She is in really bad shape and we know she isn’t going to be with us much longer. We have been over her house all weekend. My aunt, her mom, just got out of the hospital too and she can hardly take care of herself, let alone my poor cousin. My aunt is 88 years old and my cousin is 59. They were both recently in the hospital at the same time. Unfortunately for us, it was 2 different hospitals. Because of my aunts heart condition, we didn’t tell her that my cousin was in the hospital, because she would have signed herself out. They are 2 very stubborn people.

My cousin has been fighting cancer for about 6 years now. It has finally got the best of her even though she doesn’t think so. God Bless her that she has been so strong and has fought it up til now. She is not going down without a fight, that is for sure. She insists on doing everything herself and even is expecting to go to work tomorrow. She is a Math teacher at a high school and up until 2 weeks ago she has been working. She was off for spring break and then ended up in the hospital because her lungs were filling up. The doctors were afraid of pneumonia. She is home from the hospital now and wants to get back to her routine. She tutors a few students during the day at school. No one is fighting her on it becasue if that is what she wants to do, we are letting her do it. Because she is so stubborn, she probably will live a lot longer that we are thinking. To see her, is a very sad thing. She was a very strong, vibrant person and to see her all weak and fraile is depressing. She doesn’t want anyone feeling sorry for her. She is so weak and can hardly walk. She has fallen several times and thank God didn’t get hurt to badly.

My aunt just got home today and has trouble getting around. So we are a little concerned that she will be alone tomorrow for most of the day. My other cousin is staying the night to help out, but she has work tomorrow too. My aunt is so stubborn too and doesn’t want anyone to help her or feel sorry for her either.

We are all pretty much exhausted. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally too. Maybe this is the reason that I have not gotten a job yet. Maybe this it he plan God had for me now, to help my cousin and aunt. It is funny how things work out. There is always a reason for everything.