LoyalLAM's Blog
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7/22/08 3 CommentsI am not a happy camper!!
I can't believe that my fanclub package is still on Backorder!! This is really rediculous!! By the time I get it, it will be time to renew again!!
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7/18/08 1 CommentThank you all!!
I just want to thank all of my wonderful friends on here. You are all so supportive and helpful. I can't believe how a group of strangers can be so loving and caring and close. I truely love you all. When you really think about it, we are not really strangers at all. I feel like I know you all and can honestly call you my friends. We are like one big family on here.
When I tell people about this fan club and all of the wonderful people I have met through here, they laugh at me because they don't understand. I guess you have to be a real loyal to appreciate what we all are here for. It is not only for Criss, but we are here for each other. That alone is worth the money to be a part of this. I would miss all of you if I couldn't be a part of this fan club.
Well, I will keep this short and sweet and just to say again, Thank You for being my wonderful friends!!!!
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7/14/08 4 CommentsDepression is a horrible thing
Did you ever just feel like the whole world is against you??? Life has really taken a turn for the worst for me. It seems like since my Dad passed away, things in my life have taken a real dive. I can't believe how much we have to struggle just to pay some bills and a mortgage and to stay alive. It is really putting so much stress in my life right now and I am finding it very hard to deal with it. The bill collectors are ringing my phone off the wall. It is costing us a fortune for gas to get to work and as far as food shopping goes everything is so expensive. I have been working now for about a month and it is going to take time to catch up with everything, but boy I have never had to deal with this before.
We are so moody with each other and everyone just sits and mopes around. No body is talking to anyone. It is so quiet. My whole family just seems to have gone their own way. We watch TV in separate rooms and no body wants to deal with the problems at hand. It seems like I am the only one concerned about the outcome of all this and about the future of my family.
It is just horrible to have to struggle on a daily basis just to survive in this world. I'll tell ya, at times I just want to jump off a bridge because the stress and depression are so bad. (not that I would)! And the worst part is, no one cares because everyone is going through the same thing. Everyone deals with it differently.
I am just tired of everyone in my family lashing out at each other. Money is the root of all evil and I really believe that. You can't live with it and you can't live without it.
I have suggested that they give me more hours at work and when I come home, I am exhausted to the point that I could cry. My husband's job has cut the overtime in half too. My son contributes what he can to the family and I even have one of his friends living with us and he also contributes.
Not only have I been trying to deal with all of this, but I have been trying to be there for my Mom too, because my sister has just been admitted to a rehabilitation center today. She has admitted to us that she is addicted to pain killers. We caught her going through family members cabinets and purses looking for pills. She is also going through a divorce, but not because of the drug problem. Because her husband was very abusive toward her, physically and mentally. So my poor MOM is really having a hard time dealing with this.
And then to really add to the stress, and the reason I haven't been around too much is because my son has gotten himself into trouble and got arrested. I really can't go into it right now, but thank God that we have wonderful friends to help us. We have always told my son that now that he is an adult and that if he gets into trouble, we can't afford to get him out. He did something so stupid, that it makes me laugh and cry when I think about it. We have a family friend who is a lawyer who has been guiding us through this. So hopefully this will pass and be put to rest. I just hope my son has learned his lesson.
I am trying with every ounce of my being to be positive through all of this and I always tell myself that things always happen for a reason and that God is testing us all the time. But boy oh boy, did he have to do it all at once. This is just too much for one person to handle. I know we will get through this and that it has to get better from here because I can't imagine it getting any worse.
Thanks to all of you for letting me vent. I Love You ALL!!!
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7/4/08 0 CommentsIndependence Day
To all my dear friends:
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6/29/08 3 CommentsI miss you all
I just wanted to stop in and let you all know how much I miss you. I have been working like crazy now and I am exhausted.
Also I am trying to work through some really big drama that has just occured in my family. I can't go into it right now but believe me It has taken every last ounce of energy out of me.
So please know that when things settle down, I will be on more often and hopefully by then I can explain my drama.
I love and miss you all!!
